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Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch8
Chapter 8 - All I Know
We were both silent as we boarded the plane, but it was comfortable silent. We had no need for words, we just craved each other's pressence after so long of being apart. Dimitri gave me the window seat and he sat beside me. Thankfully, the aisle seat was empty so we had some privacy. I rested my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arm around me as best as he could with the armrest in the way. As we cuddled together, I felt the need to make sure he wasn't going to leave me.
"Comrade?" I asked. He looked down at me with a small smile, so I continued, "You're not just doing this because of my breakdown, right? You're going to stay with me after I'm better?" My voice cracked at the end.
"Oh, Roza. I promise that I am doing this because I love you and that I will never leave you. Your breakdown, as you put it, just made me realize that I can't life without you any longer," he told me, staring into my eyes. I smiled at him.
"Good," I said as I settled down to
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch7
Chapter 7 - Home
"Dimitri? What if we get caught?" I asked softly as we drove to the front gates.
"We won't," he told me. He sounded so sure, I just didn't know if I believed it yet. "Roza, why don't you pick the radio station for once?"
"Really?" I asked, shocked. He nodded and I didn't waste another second, turning the dial until I found a pop/rock channel. What the Hell by Avril Lavigne came on and I smiled softly. Dimitri got to the gate by now and talked to the guardian on duty and he let us out. Dimitri claimed he was taking me shopping to help me feel better and it was cleared by Alberta and Kirova. I honestly wasn't surprised the guardian at the gate bought it; most people think Dimitri would never lie.
Dimitri took my hand in his as soon as we left the wards, "I promise that I will always protect you. I love you so much, my Roza." His words helped to mend a small piece of my shattered heart. When we had been driving for over an hour, my curiousity got the best of me.
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch6
Chapter 6 - Take Me Away
I woke up in the clinic with Dimitri holding my hand. He looked so, so worried. We studied each other for a few moments.
"Roza," he started, "Dr. Olenski is going to put you on antidepressants. Also, you are going to be eating meals specifically designed to get your weight back up to healthy levels. I'll be by your side most of the time to make sure you're making progress and healing. I'm here for you, Roza. Please talk to me."
"Can you take me back to my dorm please? I have homework," I said, looking down. He nodded and we left. We had to stop to get my antidepressants and discharge me from the clinic. Then we walked silently to my dorm. When we went inside, I didn't do homework like I said I was going to. Instead, I wrote my suicide note. It read:
I'd say I'm sorry for leaving this world, but I'm not. It's what I needed to do. However, I have some last words to all of my friends. Liss, I'll start with you. I'm sorry for leaving you, but I
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch5
Chapter 5 - Why Her?
Two weeks earlier
Rose was in my room. And we were kissing. Frantic, passinate kisses. She was wearing only underwear and I coudn't help but stare at this amazing creature before me. I was only in my boxers and she seemed to like the view as much as I did.
"Roza, I love you," I murmured against the warm, soft skin of her neck.
"I love you too, Dimitri," my Roza whispered. She was finally mine. My Roza. Just as we got rid of the rest of our clothing-
My phone rang. "Fuck!" I swore in Russian.
"Belikov," I answered a bit irrate.
"Guardian Belikov, I'm sorry to wake you but there's screaming coming from Ms. Hathaway's room, could you please-" came through the other line but I tuned out the rest. All that mattered was Rose.
"On my way," I said, quickly pulling on some clothes and hanging up. I made it to her dorm in record time. I started pounding on the door, not sure if she was awake yet or not. When she didn't open it, I used the spare key I was given in case o
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch4
Chapter 4 - Why Me?
I got to my room five minutes later and collapsed on my bed, crying. You're still not good enough. No matter how skinny you make yourself, he'll never love you. I buried my face in my pillow and screamed at the top of my lungs. Once that was out of my system I slit my wrists for the second time that day, put on some sad music, and curled into myself on my bed.
"Rose? Come to dinner?" came through the bond from Lissa. I sighed and got up, walked to the bathroom and fixed myself up so I didn't look quite so horrible. I covered my wrists and was in the commons five minutes later. I saw Dimitri but didn't acknoledge his presence. I just didn't have the energy to talk much to anyone. Dinner passed in a blur, but one thing happened that I remembered clearly : Eddie got me to eat. A fucking hamburger no less. Sure I only have half but come on! I shouldn't be eating at all! As soon as people started leaving, I said I had homework and left the commons as quickly as poss
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch3
Chapter 3 - Saving Her
I watched, stunned, as Roza turned from me and stormed out the door. What the hell is going on with my girl. Stop it, Dimitri! She is not your girl and never will be! Not only is she too good for you but she's your student! She is seventeen years old, for God's sake! I mentally scolded myself. My thoughts hurt me more than I should allow. I've told her I can't let myself love her but it's too late. I'm in too deep. Roza is perfect and I love her. Now I need to find out what's going on with her.
I stayed in the gym a while longer, working out my frustrations but when dinner time came, I had to head to the commons for my shift. When I got there, I decided to stand close enough to Rose's table so that I could hear her and her friends but far enough away that it wasn't too obvious.
"Rose?" Princess Dragomir said to her softly, "Aren't you hungry? Do you want me to get you something?" Concern for her friend laced her tone.
"No thanks, Liss. I'm really not hungry,
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch2
Chapter 2 - I Just Can't Seem to Give a Fuck
Great. Just fucking great. My first class of the day is with Stan fucking Alto. And Eddie's in my class. By now he has to know about this mornings incident. I'm sure he'll give me shit as soon as I see him.
"Rose!" Eddie called as I walked in the door, surprisingly a minute early. Then he did something that shocked me; he walked over and hugged me! WTF? "Are you okay? Lissa said you acted weird this morning when she talked to you. Plus you look really tired." Yeah, like you actually care, I thought.
"I'm fine, Eddie...or I was until you started to sufficate me," I said when he held me tighter.
"Oh, sorry," he said as he blushed and released me from his death grip, "You sure you're okay?" God, when will this interagation end already.
"Honestly and truely, Ed, I'm fine. I just didn't sleep well, had a nightmare and shit," I said a little too loud at first then mumbled the last part. He gave me a sympathetic, sad look, knowing it was about
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems ch1
Chapter 1 - Nightmares
I woke up screaming at the top of my lungs. Holy shit! By this point I was sobbing, thinking of the awful nightmare I just had. I saw all the events of Spokane again but then at the end, I was in a meadow just inside St. Vlad's wards and I saw something out of the corner of my eye. I spun around with the speed of a Strigoi and saw-Mason. Or his ghost anyway. He told me it was all my fault he was killed and then I got pulled out of the wards. Just as the Strigoi was about to bite me, I woke up. I wasn't sure what to do next. Dimitri. I need Dimitri. I walked to the end of the hall and the dorm matron watched me warily.
"I need to see Di-Guardian Belikov."
"He's in Missoula with Lady Ozera," she told me, "Go back to bed Ms. Hathaway. You can see him in the morning."
I nodded slightly and headed back to my dorm. I slammed my door shut and slid down it, sobbing yet again. Tahsa's better than me, skinnier, prettier, Moroi. Of course he's with her. I'm fat, ugly a
Escaping From Our Biggest Problems-Prologue
Prologue - My Life is Fucked Up
They do always say, there's a good and a bad side to everything. No one ever mentions the horrible side. So, the good side is that Dimitri's staying. The bad side is that Tasha is too. She said that she's staying an extra month so "Dimka" will make the right choice. Bitch. The horrible side is that Mason's gone. Dead. I'll never see him laugh or smile again. Never hear his cheesy jokes. And it's all my fault. Yeah, I know. My life is fucked up.
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